A Matter of Courage!

Hi

Thursdays have become truly special to me. I have been introduced to making it about investing in my spiritual growth by other women a while ago and I never looked back.

The thing about spiritual commitments and goals is that, they tend to change You like summer to winter, then autumn to spring. Every season gives and take. One moment You are not sure what to say to God because You are overwhelmed by a lot that's going on, and the next moment all You know best is to take it all up to him in prayer. Next thing you wake up the next day in awe for you apparently made it without falling apart. One moment You feel like there's no help you can offer or anything worth sharing, and within ten minutes of surrendering to a rather "ordinary start of a noon", you find some old post on your notebook to ponder upon and share.

One time I was watching (honestly I was listening because I was in the kitchen cooking while washing dishes and trying to attend to my kids who kept running to me to report that the other did what to the other) the National Geographic Channel and the narrator said courage comes in all forms and shapes in the wild. This stuck, obviously. I am now here trying to make sure I encourage You in this regard also.

There were times in my life where I didn't have courage to open the curtain and face the fact that it is daylight and I must go out there and face the sun. Days of just feeling sorry for myself, making it seem like I am incapable and even undeserving of shining. Days of an absolute routine that is of zero challenge. I would sit on the same spot, use the same mug for tea, watch the same television shows, nap at the same time and probably see no use of reading books in front of me with catchy headings. I would find no reason to answer a call because I didn't believe I could have anything to say. This brings me to what I believe made me feel even more anxious socially. Honestly, It doesn't sound believable since I tjatjarak here and there behind a device, but I truly find it difficult to hold myself together in actual social gatherings, I end up either being to quiet, or find something to keep myself busy, like washing dishes while the party is still on (Lol) .

The more I invest in myself , the more I am finding it manageable to be around others and even be more open to change. I trust that the fears I have are loosening because I am committed to grow spiritually. In other words, I am taking all my fears and worries to God instead of letting them control me. Prayer works. How is it working for you? Do you believe in what you pray for? Some food for thought.

The attached is what was on my notebook, dated 21st December 2019 - 14:17 p.m. The post was inspired from whats in there. " Breaking the limitations of timidness"

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I hope with this unplanned post, you will believe that You Matter and that every little that You put in, comes back with rewards. You can be all that and more, You are Wonder Woman. Stop hiding in oblivion with wander and do what you love. It matters, You Matter!

Regards

Livhuwani