Liberate Yourself!

Hi

The thing about Spring is that a lot of nature’s wonders find their way to come to life. A reborn, new life, reform, fresh start, at liberty to amaze, attract and bloom. It is as if nobody can really do anything to stop the flowers from popping out. The fresh air that caresses your cheeks every now and then, the taste of the sun that lures you to just lay down for a while, relax and stop being so busy all the time. The colour of it as it sets, different shades of what I have yet to come to terms with, as it exudes deep, flirtatious and passionate feels of cosiness, as the night takes over. This is Spring for you, liberating vibes.

The illusions I am having over what I just started with, can You imagine being unable to feel like that because I am/you are locked in with inner entanglements beyond my/your control. A past that makes you feel like it is still winter. An unfulfilled expectation that is making you feel like there is no reason to be hopeful. The weight of the shame that particular disappointment brought. The feeling of immense lack of motivation. Inability to truly smile or crack a laugh for the world is going through a lot and it would seem insensitive. The joy in you submerged for there is still a lot you haven’t achieved. Fear of being happy and looking it since your enemies will have more to know of you, so closed in you remain. The negative words you were told stuck in your head, paralyzing your self-belief. The long awaited apology, not coming. All this, most of us do experience, unfortunately more than we should. A lot of it is done with and needs to be left alone like shoes that do not fit anymore. There is no need to keep them or incite an injury by forcing to fit in. Why do we hold on to these things? Truly, a captivity that requires a breakthrough. Now, how can we develop ways to liberate ourselves?

My journey has helped shape some possible resolves on this. It usually starts with internal conversations, thoughts and feelings, in the lines of; “Dear Lord, please…”, “I need to change”, “I am tired of being this way”, “I need help”, “I hate this”, “Snap out of it”, “Not now”, "I do not feel like it …". Yes, subconsciously, day in and out the war within, both you and I have won many times in different ways. However, did you notice it? Have you cracked the code of sustaining your drive to break free from such self-captivity? Have you taken the time out, to find you? You must take interest in this for it is the difference. I am working on it just as well. If you are the type who take some time off, unplugged, then I guess you know how you deal. For some is exercising, some write, some schedule a session with a professional, some just take a vacation, some seek a cool hangout where everyone is avoiding drama. You must have your way, somehow.

This is a matter of knowing how you liberate yourself from instances when you know the space you are in is filled and consumed by who you are not, and definitely do not want or wish to be. There is a danger if this kind of Self-awareness is not explored. Every now and then, we all drown in self-sabotage, derail and forget to exhale the self-inflicted drama. We kind of stay too long in that self-defeating character. I am telling you, at this point, anyone can throw the nicest compliment at you and you would think they are so deceiving. The best motivator can come through and you would yawn. You would lose a remote because you left it in your fridge (I have done this), like your senses, the common gets lost. You would convince yourself you are weak, unlovable, unworthy, incapable, a joke. Do relate and carry on…

Talk about being unkind to the one person who knows how much love they deserve and should get, YOURSELF. The trick is in identifying who is assigned to give you all that which you know, believe and feel you deserve. You will be glad to know that it is the one person you are most familiar with, YOU. Easy , right? The one person to let your inner bloom come out, is You. The one to motivate you, is You. The deliverer from past yokes, is you. The initiator, You. The one to do the work, You. The constant reminder to never give up, You. The re-energizer, You. The seed sower, grower and harvester, You. The Leader, Your Maker! Your access, consistency in Praying for his will to be done in your life. At least, that is how I have been doing it and I am surely approaching life differently. I am more self-aware, forgiving and kind to my fragile self. I am always liberating myself from the me, I know I don’t like.

I know in words (the talk) it sounds all catchy and nice, when it comes to the walk, there’s no doubt, it takes a lot. I mean, it took a long time to be where I am. I surely haven’t even reached the climax, where you know soon it will be complete. I don’t wish to get to that scary place. I would like to keep fascinating myself, learn and grow. Keep falling here and there, taste that glorious rise. Beat myself up some time, lick my wounds and patch them, to appreciate the healing and keep in touch with the scars. Be patient with myself. I would not wish to miss a chance to be humbled, wherein I get to identify how much it took to break free and the rewards I gained. It is no longer a deal breaker to be challenged, for it channels my focus. A girl has to make it a matter of making herself proud You know, it matters.

My hope is that the stuff strangling you can lose their power. Explore you through intentional investments in learning how you have been shaking them off, your whole life. Truly, you are stronger than you know. You are capable of self-motivating. Learn to take matters of self-empowerment to yourself. Self-affirm. Liberate yourself from the you, you do not like to be. It matters, You Matter.

Herewith a few liberating scriptures; Isiah 43: 18-19/ 2 Corinthians 10: 3-4/ Romans 5:3-5 / Philippians 3: 13-14/ Ephesians 3:12

Regards

Livhuwani