On Guard...

A dear morning, I’m in deep thoughts.

In the interest of keeping it real, like for most, life’s demands are showing off right now. I am not only trying to keep the balance but rather keep track of what is off balance and make sure I get the reasons why. This means what is seemingly going well, can stand a good chance to be because that is what true balance is about. It is about being real about the good and the bad.

It is much colder lately. For me, it is cold in most days actually. I’m the joke in my home, and I always have some throw next to me or else, a jersey on me. I must say, winter for me is always seasonal. I do not really care if it is hot, but I am always looking for reasons to have a jersey. I know for sure, being cold is not fun. I would rather be overdressed than the latter. I feel that my body can’t take it and my brain sure has it programmed that I can’t. And so, for a warm me, I am content with not counting on whether reports when it comes to personal coverage. I am also sure some chilly weather(discomforting circumstances) will always be knocking. I’m sure I’m not the only one. Much like life’s ups and down, we all can be sure by now, they do not skip a single soul. So, I am investing in not being the type that think warmth doesn’t take work. In this cold world, who can afford being that naïve…

As I tap into refinement, there is no one way to go about it except heart-on. Matters of the heart I mean. My heart right now is beating a lot to what so many close to me are going through. Not a day goes by I do not check on someone. People are going through the most. It is just as important to admit I am going through a lot too. It shouldn’t be hard to write this and admit to it as it is. For some reason however, it can be. Why is this so? Perhaps, because I do not want to sound selfish, come across as self-centered, weak and rather playing victim. There is this other reason possible to entertain, maybe being human gets us to just be neglectful of our own mountains that need to be gone through because those of others look easy. Which is it for you? For me, all of the above. And so, I choose to share about this. This is my way of taking on the climb.

Considering my bravery and its course, I feel I can share this. Every day is an adjustment to something. The moods of those around us, the new headlines, weather, decisions to make, so and so. Whatever I figured out well the day before has opened room for more this present day. Tomorrow must be so anxious don’t you think? This is how life is meant to be, or is it? I think so. It is laid out to be just the right amount of everything, with a lot to learn from and carry on from. We should be able to take it. Take on boldness and strive to. Are you of the assumption that because some seem to be having it better, you are owed just as well? By who.. (if I may) ? Trust me, you will not take this question well if you are busy thinking of someone else, instead of yourself while reading this. You Matter! – is about this, You.

To keep this a bit short, I am challenging myself today to own up to my “going through”. Not my loved ones are bits responsible for my cross over. They can be influential and of substance to my drive, but this is my life’s experiences to attest to. If I am tired, I’m the one to choose to rest. If I’m flunking, I can blame the pandemic or just the laziness and bad time management. However, I can just give it another try. If I am feeling somehow, I can be honest and recall how attempting to lean on my own understanding has caught up with me. Honestly, if I feel like I’m caught up in doubt, it is my faith to act on. I can do this…

Note to self: What has tripped you is only alerting you. Watch on, as you head forth.

It is not that you cannot take the pain, the fall backs and disappointments. The real truth is that you can take them, and you are taking them. It is just not pleasant and it sure can be scary too. That is what is tripping you. Believe it or not, being able can be daunting because it opens up some type of agility to carry on notwithstanding the odds against what is. Have you ever been surprised with yourself so much that it scares you? (I think I’m doing it right now)… You’ll be like how in the world did I manage that? Why am I not breaking things? How am I still standing? Me, I did that? Yes, you did. You are doing it. Scared or not, challenged or not, you still have it in you to be. Try not then, to let yourself down just because it doesn’t make sense that You Are that brave/courageous/capable.

Be on guard of this.

The reality that you will always have reasons to be demotivated and of great disbelief is just as apparent as that of being motivated and of hope. Choose the reality you feel most worthy of your time and energy. In my Transcendence, I am choosing to cast the negatives away and make room for the positives. If I can be negative, I sure can be positive. If I can be weak, surely, I can be strong. For me to be brought down, I must have been up. Why else would a lot that’s bad be looking to get my attention this much? Yes… I am giving bad circumstances a hard time at putting a final stamp on who I am. Life’s demands aren’t new, they have been there and so have I. Now, let me get on with it… I acknowledge this hard truth.

Be on your guard; stand firm in faith; be courageous; be strong. - I Corinthians 16:13

Protect yourself from wanting an easy life as if it’s promised.

Be resilient. Keep up with what life gives you. It is tailored for you for a reason meant for none other.

Your faith needs challenges for it to grow. Do not be dismayed.

It Matters, You Matter!

LT