Small but Significant much...

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It has been a jolly good time since my last post. The truth in "jolly" is that growing has literally been a thrill. I am adulting with a full on thirst for some new experiences and a great appreciation for those that have passed. A vibrant me is really just into this moment, this season, this life!

Small things matter, an understatement. Have you ever ran out of sugar and end up making tea in that sugar tin instead of a mug so you can catch on the last bits of sweetness? How about that random unused sachet of tomato sauce you found in one of the kitchen drawer from that takeaway pack, right on time when you were sure your child in no way was going to accept food without it? I have been through all that and it always make a big difference. It is a shade of a tiny tree on a really hot day, in a crowded place. A pinch of salt in most meals. A half an hour of yoga a day to feel energized and a short prayer to feel revived. All of this fall in a day, to a week, month, year and to make up a life. It is my small garden where in I grow a variety of vegetables that can feed my small family substantially. The small commission from selling Avon products and Honey Fashion Accessories that get me off to enjoying a nice meal on a random day and indulge on some treats for anyone I feel like sharing with. It is in the smile someone gets when you wish them well, with just a few words.

Surely, to undervalue small things is an injustice to a full life.

In my twenties, I really had trouble coping with what I had. One of the reasons why that was so, it felt small and not necessarily enough. There was always bigger things that made better sense. I am being intentional here, for one, I wanted a big house that I couldn't afford nor maintain. We stayed in a flat but we bought big items that made moving an even bigger nightmare from the usual. When we went fishing, catching a big fish was cool until you get home and realize the space for its preservation wasn't there.

Longer hair was an obsession, as if I can't rock short-hair like I know I do. I wanted to have a long list of friends, meaning I probably had a lot of unhealthy relationships. I mean, there is no harm in being friendly but the moment you start feeling disappointed that in a special event the turn out was low, you must know that you are about quantity and not quality, it is a serious wrong turn. I obsessed over my kids gaining more weight as if it was a sign of good health. To be honest, I probably wouldn't even handle the kind of weight I was imagining for them. I wanted bigger breasts as if my tiny body could handle the weight, this to a point where I would double on Bras to look loaded (laugh with me). Dear Lord, the discomfort was brutal. Hey now, this was not on at all! It added to my misery. Imagine how much better I would have enjoyed my living space, family, hobbies and my body if I just embraced what I thought was "small",, "not enough" - if I embraced what I had!

Growing up, cleaning (scrubbing the floor) was about having a serious relationship with the floor on my knees. I use to be very proud of my cleaning in that way. I trusted the results of that method. As things evolved, mops became a standard and I don't quite feel confident about my cleaning since. I end up spending too much time trying to make sure all is well. This is simply for I now clean standing and literally not fully observing and accessing small corner spots and what not. The same with this long stick broom, there is just something really defeating about them. I always miss a spot, however small, making me feel like I didn't clean at all. It surely never was like that when using cow dung for the floor or scrubbing on my knees. So that spot, however small, is really costing me satisfaction. It is much like running short of "a mark" to pass an exam, or small change to get a loaf of bread, you will appreciate the significance. This is just undeniable isn't it!

Significant much is small matters (I want to grow in areas to follow) like when a person accomplish something, I want to congratulate without making them feel like it not sufficient or they gun for bigger things. I want to be interested in hearing how their journey was like mostly. When someone contribute positively to a cause though in small efforts, I want to be thankful and inspired without complaining or comparing. I need to be realistic about my goals and take it one small step, at a time. The very small garden I have, I want to continue enjoying it fully, for it is what I can manage and sustain. The small circle of people in my life, I need to continue making sure it remains full of love. The small acts of kindness, I am going to invest in giving more. However small the returns of any of my investments, I am going to be glad. Most of what builds up into big things, starts off as small things. I want to grow in this way, I am making this my way. The way that makes me recognize that every input counts. If it just a "Hi" that will result into interesting conversations, I am going to greet first before I can throw in big expressions. I am going to enjoy the small sized section when I go shopping and not feel like I am lost in a reflection of a teen, it is damn good privilege to look this young. I will not go crazy with the inches of the shoe heels, in hope to level up with my husband, his chest is really comfortable to lean on as we hug anyways. I am short, tiny and small, I freak-en still matter as a grown woman/mother/wife and should respect myself more.

Breathe!

The smart ones always advise, save and invest your money , no matter how little it is. Kindly take and use this advice. Apply it even with your other commitments. If you are having fitness goals, every mile you run, less junk you consume, little glass of water you drink in a day, it is adding to a good balance and health. The small chat with your loved ones on a busy day, it is making them feel a whole lot special. At home, the small contributions you are making, helping one another keep a clean household, it is adding to your confidence and trust in one another, that you are reliable. The overall of every little thing you are putting on to keep warm, energized, motivated and driven, it is enabling you to keep up with the heat of a complete you. Kindly learn to pat your own back in every step of the way, it is a step in the right direction, forward.

Spiritually, Luke 16 : 10 lays it down well that, "“One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is unreliable in a very little is also unreliable in much.” There is no taking small acts lightly now for sure. Open your heart to doing and being good honestly with little matters so much that God can trust you with even bigger ones. It is in giving cheerfully and not under compulsion. It is in minding your intentions when you support others, show up for them and not be calculative that they owe you. It is returning that pen you took even when no one saw you take it. The part where you wait your turn, no matter how important you think you are in that queue, perhaps if you stopped with your pride and respect those before you, this can help you grow into being a patient human being. Patience is virtue, who knows, may be by the time you get there, things will have improved to be more suited to your needs. Perhaps, saying you are not really clued up on something instead of lying, will get you in less trouble at work. It is usually a minor thing that was not observed that takes away from being fruitful spiritually. You wont have to prove that you can carry a big task, your aura will tell. Invest in excelling in small commitments, so that you can account confidently in bigger ones. However little a step in a right direction seems, it still counts as progress. And; "Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap." - Galatians 6:7. Best you not fool yourself into thinking the wrong things you do knowingly, however small, is not counting against a good ripe in you.

Are you saying to yourself that you are small and insignificant? Have you seen how small some seeds are, that grow into big plants? Have you notice that the same small seed plants tend to grow and produce more seeds? It is truly not a size matter, but of potential. Even so, there is only one small you and you must believe that your purpose is distinctively tailored for you, no one else but you. What is more special than that in your existence? Get on with your life as you are and see if the sun will stop shining as it pleases. One more thing, it is always good to live up to a good name than a bad one, however small you feel. Do not seek attention by compromising your dignity in the name of being considered significant. That part is free, you just put on a priceless tag on you. Know that you are precious to God and therefore, you matter. Love that about you ,be good at being you and grow your way, even if it is small.

A small you can still be great. You Matter!

Regards

Livhuwani

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