Strengthened Inner Man

Hi

You have been living and not just surviving I trust . You have been mending what's broken where necessary and changing I hope. In light of having a life still, grounded in gratitude must be your stance. And so to this note I am invested, "I will never get tired of seeing you being real with yourself." It is another day to live and share.

This is my sum up in the way of growth, that it is not for those unwilling to change. Considering how I have been going about this month, fearing the unknown needed to be addressed in some areas of my life. Driving on a road consumed by fog had me literally sure that to get to the other side of clear skies, I must hold on a little longer. Yes, I could have parked by the road side, but it was only a distance that a complete radio news reading exhausts, that is probably less than five(5) minutes for me to keep up with a slight discomfort. I can bet that for that fog to clear up, it took much longer than that. Much like with holding on to fear, you often use up too much time than needed, to cast on to another to the other side of knowing/ experiencing/ developing. Fear is a blindfold you tie singlehandedly against your growth, unless is on fearing God. It is a yield by road side to get anxious over not knowing and being in control. To this, I say watch out, it might not be good for you to stay on the sides, out of the path paved for you because you are afraid to know what is ahead of you. It might be a good thing to journey on. You will never know what's on the other side until you try. Be positive!

" Fear limits growth."

I won't lie, taking time out to rest and regain strength is all good. I do it all the time. It surely feels good and tends to adjust a lot of things that generally get out of balance. This happens to me a lot with my individual commitments like studies. Taking a break from a difficult chapter ends up being a good thing for the brain to air condion. Getting back to it is on a relatively refreshed note after a break. Unfortunately, a break is at times when taking "a time out" is not really as so, as it may trigger on temptations of giving up. Sometimes it is just a way to awaken distractions. This is what I do when I no longer feel motivated and committed. I fool myself and claim I'm taking a break knowing very well, I am just being a coward. I will start saying I'm taking some time off out loud as if those around me asked. I will take on another task that will justify as to why I am not getting back to finish what I've started. This is excuses to procrastinate, just another form of refusing to learn, resisting growth. I have been facing this drastically this month since school resumed. The promise I made to myself that I'm looking to grow held me accountable though. I could not watch a whole season of a series full on. It was not making sense to say I'm taking a break while binnge watching for that would be like I am still on vacation, which I'm not. Even when the kids where off to school, with time to myself, I couldn't keep postponing on my yoga classes, checking up on school updates or preparing for the next task. The year is on flight now, no longer boarding. What needs to be done has to be done. This means that to be present and proactive is not a luxury but a way to grow. Sleeping eight hours is not flying right now. Not keeping a to-do list is leading to a catastrophe. Not making time to plan out a week's schedule would mean missing out on helping with my children 's homework, picking them up late or being disregarding my partner's working schedule too. After all, my choices do not just affect me. In the words of Benjamin Franklin, “By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail.” And so I believe it is a good thing to grow through good planning and execution.

" Being present and proactive enables growth. "

I am one of those people who particularly prefer they stay home all day and go out only if necessary. This I trust is not a bad thing considering the kind of world we live in. However, with my choice to focus on growth staring at me, the comfort of being home didn't quite work out. I ended up making a few changes to the plans I made for March in the previous months. Instead of holding on to what's comfortable and less complicated, I did plan to go out to get some pampering, investing on Self-Care as I always preach. I dedicated a few bucks on things that are for temporary pleasure but long lasting memories, away from home. It was refreshing to do this, some of it alone and most with my family. This made me feel alive and attentive to self. I did not feel guilty like I use to when I got special attention. I did not feel reckless about my choices of spending. And this grew my perspective on what a few sacrifices can salvage in terms of being brave and joyful. I learned that however short a trip away from home is, it is still an adventure worth exploring. It is a discovery of many things and spaces that can be of great pleasures in life. To be less serious about "adulthood" this time opened room to actually finding joy in being all grown up. I have to conclude that this is a very significant part of living a fulfilling life. It sure felt well deserved.

"Change of scenery is rejuvenating. Best you invest in more than just what's comfortable if you want to embrace growth . "

When a wrecking ball is swinging your way and it is unavoidable, no matter how strong you are built, it will impact hard and may as well displace you. This I am referring to life eventualities that do not care if you are prepared or not. The notorious blows that are bound to happen like a loss of a loved one or a difference in opinions on something, this is what I'm on about. I am highlighting things that most people know by now, they can only adjust to through acceptance. However long adapting and adjusting takes, this circumstances are there to be dealt with or else they deal with you to an anguish. Wanting to be a better person means facing this reality with extreme honesty as to what you cannot handle on your own. I am talking about understanding that you will need some help, during such times. To deal with this kind of life's problems, challenges, disappointments and disasters, one must be open to being vulnerable. I am encouraging a sense of comfort in accepting help when offered and seeking support where required. I am encouraging an undressing of one's ego and acknowledging when a guard needs to be let off. It is okay to grieve, to be sad and be unable in this kind of situations. Respectfully, I acknowledge that there is no formula to one's reaction or processing. No one way works the same with everyone. This is when you then can benefit from giving in to supplication of prayers where burdens are there but not to be solely carried by you. You lean on someone or something to get better. You do not ignore or stay in denial, you eventually take from the experience that which it is intended . In essence, you engage a spiritual affair that all is well with your soul and to him a refuge is secured while a good work is taking place in you. You grow by letting God lead. You trust that time is a healer!

" To be gracefully broken means you value surrendering, for you are nothing without his favor."

I am content with moving forward with all that I took from the Wonder that March has been thus far. May God continue to keep me. May I keep growing in faith, hope and love. To be me is all I want to be, and to be who he intends I be, is what I need. In him I trust, in him I grow. His ways Matter, I Matter!

🌱Ephesians 3: 14-19

For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height— to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

🌱Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

🌱Proverbs 16:9

The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.

It be a good day ❤️

Regards

Livhuwani