A Matter of Embrace!

Hi

Ever since giving birth with my first child, one of the most distinctive changes that were surely standing out physically was my stretch marks on my belly and the overwhelming change in the feel and fragility of my spine.

Yes, those two really stood out for me. By this, I mean I was struggling to cope with the change. The breasts, the weight and even the scar of my cesarean didn’t really bug me. The thing about stretch marks on my belly that worn me out is that I never had any before and my skin tone there was all of a sudden, absolutely horrendous, i thought. It seems the tissue oil I used during pregnancy darkened the skin profoundly and when I stood by the mirror, even the dark spots on my blemished face looked much lighter compared to my poor belly. The lines/stretches where so light I saw stripes of certain animal (Lol, I know you will guess which animal I’m talking about!). I had a really nice caramel figure. I really cherished that and it was clear that was all gone.

It happened that the belly fat went down over time and with my second born child, I surely didn’t care about tissue oil. I don’t know what happened that actually made me cherish my new trademark, but I have learned to look at myself and be proud. It must be growth. I must say, the little ones crack up when they see my NOW tiny tummy with lines as some bits hang. The skin hasn’t firmed up yet though I am back to my old sizes (28,30 and 32 – depending on clothing type). I have realized that given my trouble with bad acne on my face, it was pretty silly to worry about a body part such as my belly which is mostly covered while my facial imperfections just attract attention so effortlessly. See, most of us women tend to forget how bold we are over things that are so miniature. A stone is really made into a rock, hello emotions and irrationality, our nationality. This is a matter of fact.

Then there was my back. They warned me(those before me), it will never be the same. During cold weather, you will feel some discomfort. Should You be stressed, it will take all the strain. You would think it’s a heart this spine the way it really aches when I am stressed or overworked. Generally, when this happen, I truly have found a sense of pride though it isn’t pleasant to be all stiff and robotic. This is because I am reminded of my strength. What would be the point of feeling all weak and incapable when only I was made to succumb by God? It is just proof that even weaker vessels serve great purposes. But, on that day of washing blankets neh, I feel like I’m on my third trimester all over again and will really have to chill unconditionally (just keeping it real) …!

Anyhow, I am trying to let You understand that it is okay to be caught up in wander every now and then over what our bodies withstand. It does feel a bit too much and unfair. However, the bible is clear on womanly pain (Genesis 3:16 & John 16:21). I feel like this is really just a humble effect needed in life.The pain that manifest into blessings (Deuteronomy 23:5). It is a matter of You and I learning to embrace our capabilities with all it comes with, good and bad. Some have overcome this physical changes with tissue oils restoring skin tones to “perfection”, some have exercised the weight away, some didn’t even have to do much because naturally, the body did its wonder. What I love is that once You heal by letting it be well with your soul, your body follows.

All this and that, between You and I, just proves that we are of substance. We Matter in every form and shape. We deserve the honor (I Peter 3:7). Embrace that, Embrace You. It Matters, You Matter.

Check out my picture with my motherhood trademark. So special, Boom!

Regards

Livhuwani