You Matter, the Anecdote!

I was caught in a mess the other day, feeling somewhat betrayed over what I now understand and believe the other party was "protecting" me from worrying. It was not that I was feeling aggravated, I was sad. There are somethings that one cannot be shielded from I felt, as if the truth is always easy to bear. The lesson here was to comprehend good intentions and that it is was an act of love when that moment came of being kept from the "real truth". I did fail and mistaken the care shown as an offense or disappointment. I had forgotten that at times, no matter how old or mature I may think I am somethings I just cannot handle as they happen or at all. All is well now and I have been going through the whole ordeal and it hit me, I really matter to that person. I am being positive about it. To still be loved like that, I welcome and give thanks.

It has been a thing lately to be going out of our way to protect one another. I know is not all perfect considering where we are as a people; however, the hope is that we are doing it. A matter of fact is that, every single life matters. Whenever someone sacrifices his or her safety for you, it is because you Matter. When a person goes to an extreme to say they are well when they are not, believing they are protecting you from worrying, it is a sign that you Matter to them. The sanity we all hope for our loved ones to have and maintain is all in the name of expressing the love we have in our hearts for them. For this very truth, this should serve as a sign, surely be convinced by now, you do Matter!

As I journey on, I am growing in comprehending the meaning behind why this platform even started. It is not about having an audience, it is about reaching that one person who needs to know and understand that they matter, myself included. It is not about others knowing that you Matter at most, it is about you getting it for your own Self-Preservation. A safeguard needs to be instilled, get this; there is really a need for your existence. Yes, there may be reason to doubt this, only in a moment of weakness, shall that be. You really have a reason to be investing in yourself, why not?

There are times when as human beings, the need to be wanted is just overwhelming. When this does not happen, the yearning can be breathtaking to some dark places. At those very moments, comfort can come from the most ruinous things and places. You know when you feel like no one seems to care, it is not always that you are forgotten. In my own self-confronting spaces, I have found the need to admit that I have just spent too much time neglecting myself. To be investing in yourself is a matter of consistency. It is a process, a never-ending one. Self-Care is a duty only you can carry while others only are to complement. Knowing and understanding that you matter is a prerequisite to developing a sense of being that you can be proud of. Self-awareness sanctioning your ability to explore your potential truly. I do not know who needs to have this get through, but I needed to be reminded of this in this passing week. It took a lot of gardening of cause, and a shoulder to cry on too. Glad to have ceased a moment to recharge.

This is about you and me, as WE are, constantly self-affirming. It is about being accountable to our need for help where in lack and doing our best where gifted. There are no better hands worth the grip when it comes to grasping the worth you have in you, except yours. When you go on with being tough, your fragility grows as well. I often have times when I am in a hunt to find motivation to keep going, believe it. I do close doors sharply. I do get frustrated. I do snap and find myself sickened on how bad I handled things. The one thing I never seem to run short of is being at fault at something and being too hard on myself for it. It is important that I mention this for given the virtual interactions I instigate may come across as if I am always on top form. Trust me when I say, it is all for I recognize His (God) grace. I am have people I get in touch with just to sob and be dumb to. I have days when I am not up to anything. I have scary days and very sad ones too. Nights that seem like days and to sleep is foreign. Days when I am not sure if I really matter. The one thing that helps me get up and get on with life is having things like this (writing) calling out to me. A blog carefully placed to be a reminder of what I love doing. I find inspiration from loved ones I try to keep close and give my best to, as well as the Faith I have found to be worth my while no matter how good or bad it gets. Have you found your way around "the moments" in your life?

It is with a glad heart to let you know that even though it may not seem like it as far as where you are and the things you are going through; there is a reason for you to be grateful and hopeful. You could very well shout it aloud that You Matter because I said so, as long as it adds to your self-belief. For any reason, in case you have forgotten, and as long as this post made it to you, trust me, you are worth this reminder, You Matter!

Regards

Livhuwani